::.. As Amy Sees It ..::

The Angry Bitch Project - FAILED

2011-09-13T11:30:00.003+08:00

Alas, the 30-day Angry Bitch Project is over, and deemed failed. I'm honestly sorry for those who actually read it and had more faith in me than I do in myself (and I'm truly grateful that you do). But I'm not sorry that I failed and I'm not going to justify that I did. If there's anything about me that's consistent, it's inconsistency. It was initially depressing to know that. But when I think

The Angry Bitch Project - Day 22 (2 September)

2011-09-02T11:58:00.002+08:00

"And so, from today onwards, 11 August 2011 (Thursday), I challenge myself to a 30-day trial of the Attitude Towards Life test. Having said that, I'll be posting a post a day reporting on what are the shits that I'll have to go through each day and how I managed to (or not) get through them. Let's see what happens after 30 days. =D " Another 8 days left for the project to see how '

The Angry Bith Project - Day 17 (28 August)

2011-08-28T18:41:00.003+08:00

it's been another 5 days that i missed updating this project. and couple of things happened that i can't mention here. why? i read somewhere that one of the things that we shouldn't do is to post anything that we definitely don't want to read about in the future, or could be read by others. then it got me thinking, what's this blog for then. and as of this very moment, i'm effing pissed

The Angry Bitch Project - Day 12 (23 August)

2011-08-24T15:26:00.002+08:00

Mundane. Tho when I first started out on this job, the very thing that I'm doing made me feel like shooting myself on the head, by now it's becoming... ordinary. Is that good? Or bad? Well, it's good that I kind of know what to expect and do now. But the fact that I kind of know what to expect and do now is... bad. Ya, the repetition is done on purpose because it means exactly that. And man don't

The Angry Bitch Project - All 11 Days That I Missed!

2011-08-16T15:52:00.011+08:00

Crap. I missed 11, ELEVEN days of the project. I was in Bintulu (sigh.. I miss that place) for the first 3 days i missed updating this blog.. Managed to post an update only for the first day. By the second day, I was exhausted. Read: family, kid, emceeing for a full-day event two days in a row. And on Tuesday, I return to work. And when it comes to work, it just doesn't end anywhere. By now, I

The Angry Bitch Project - Day 1

2011-08-12T22:55:00.004+08:00

Aha! I managed to find the time to post something a day after I posted something. That, for me is already an achievement, after years of not being able to do so. So, kudos, Amy Dangin! Anyway, Day 1 of the Angry Bitch Project is not so bad. In fact, niente is bad about it because today we flew back home to Bintulu! Yeay! Yes. everything went perfectly well. no hiccups (thus far, and I hope

Angry Bitch

2011-08-10T14:00:00.005+08:00

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The

Pemalas

2011-08-08T10:26:00.002+08:00

Seriously Amy, just how hard is it to consistently update your blog??? Ugh...

This Is Home

2011-05-24T09:48:00.006+08:00

For the past 2 years of my life, going back to my hometown KK had always been a joy that I'd immediately update my Facebook status about the excitement of it all; booked tickets, packed stuff, and embracing my beloved family members and friends in KK...But this time, I feel the complete opposite of happy... Because this time, I'm going back for good...Micah and I are leaving in four days time...

My 4th ID card

2011-04-28T10:36:00.000+08:00

I just picked up my new MyKad today. I didnt look good as i did on my first ID card when i was 12, but i definitely look better than i did on the last two. I'm only 26 yet i've had FOUR ID cards. What does that say about me? My mom said to me by the 3rd time i lost it, "If our genitals are detachable, u would have lost that too," adding that there'd be no way i could ever pass urine again,

Am I A Fool Goin' Where the Wind Blows?

2011-01-21T13:15:00.003+08:00

Here is a song that I've always been able to relate to, since I knew of it when I was 16.. especially during those low moments where I feel stuck in a rut and just wanna get out but I don't know how.. At 25, going on 26 in two months time, now a wife, a mother, and a journalist, I still have those moments... I've learned that they are necessary, in deciding where do you wanna or should go next...

Down

2011-01-21T13:09:00.003+08:00

I'm in such a low period of my life... I feel weak physically, emotionally, and spiritually.. I can't decide what should I do next... It's so intense that I can't even write properly... Ugh... Where art thou, my salvation? ='(

Numb

2010-12-13T10:35:00.004+08:00

The other day when I was rushing to make it for the 11am mass at St. Anthony, having had to rush between the house to check on Micah and the rehearsal for an event I was emceeing for, I realized that I could not make it on time, and I screamed in frustration, before I broke down and cried...Part of why I cried was probably because I was so exhausted juggling everything from my baby to double jobs

Exhausted

2010-10-25T11:44:00.002+08:00

I've been exhausted.. Physically and emotionally.. I feel like every single ounce of energy in my body had drained out.. I feel like shutting down for a while..

A LOL-Worthy Part of My Life

2010-10-16T12:50:00.008+08:00

It's another public holiday today (TYT's birthday) and here I am in the office, apparently 'looking' for news. Actually, it's more of waiting for news, as in waiting for something newsworthy to happen.My son Micah is with his dad. What I want more is to go home and just be lazy in front of the TV. But what is more likely to happen if I am to go home is, me screaming bloody murder every 10 minutes

Malaysia Day? Why Not?

2010-09-14T11:26:00.004+08:00

For the past couple of years or so, I've read more about ethnic & religious harmony, and national unity in newspapers and seen or heard it on broadcast, than I ever did in my last 25 years of living as a Malaysian. I don't really know how I feel about it. How do you feel about it?In a way, it's a good thing; every minister in the cabinet came out saying, "Malaysians are lucky to be able to live

Amy & Her Life - As of August 2010

2010-08-10T12:06:00.004+08:00

I've promised myself over and over again that I would update my blog OFTEN, say maybe at least WEEKLY. Over and over again, I failed, hence, the repetition of promises. I'm a good writer, and part of that is because I used to write out my feelings and updates DAILY, on my blogs. Where did that part of you go, Amy? =(Anyway, since I'm here now, I might as well post updates of my life and me =)As a

What A Day

2010-06-10T15:52:00.003+08:00

By the time my other half came home this morning, I was already asleep. So going to bed angry was already contributing to waking up on the wrong side of the bed today.My mother in-law asked me to help her with her specialist appointment at the Bintulu Hospital, which required me to go all the way (it's in a terrible distance) to the hospital, just to change the appointment date. I was fine with

I Love Food. Period.

2010-06-08T11:09:00.004+08:00

I Love Food. Period. There's no other way I can put it because that is what it is. I love food (except for veggies). I've always been the kind who eats anything and anytime. I've never been concerned of what I eat or drink, because I was never concerned of my weight or health. I'm not proud of it... but I love food!They say it derives from your upbringing. I thought that was true. But when I look

I'd Lost It?

2010-06-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

People who know me would know that I'm a pretty fun kind of person. At leas I WAS.. But there I was sitting at Star, and thinking, "When can we leave?" There's booze, fags and not-so-bad companions, the kind of stuff that usually got me going. But not this time, and the many previous times I could remember sitting in a club or bar post-baby.. Have I lost it? I no longer find pleasure or fun in

My First Pay

2010-06-03T17:41:00.002+08:00

I got my first pay two days ago (Yeay!) and by now it's more than half gone (Sigh...). Naturally, I ought to feel sad by that. But what makes me feel otherwise is the fact that I did more than just spend it on myself this time (yeay!).So I guess, becoming a mother really does change the way you to see things, the way you prioritize things. I guess I started to realize that I have a person to look

Yours Truly Updated

2010-06-02T11:08:00.009+08:00

This blog ought to be kept alive. And what better way to do that than update my readers of what I've been up to. =)As a mother, it's only natural that I would want to update people on my son. Ha ha. He's 8 months and 2 weeks old now. He's losing weight tho, probably due to the many, many movements and actions he's been up to; crawling, struggling to stand up with the aid of furniture and any

My first mobile blogging post!

2010-06-02T10:56:00.000+08:00

Hope this works!

Cool to be Holy

2010-04-22T09:42:00.001+08:00

Cool: Socially adept; great; fine; excellent. Holy: Dedicated & devoted to the service of God, the church, or religion. Can anyone tell me if these two words are antonyms? Can't a person be both or one has to be only one of these, in so saying, does it mean that these two are two opposite extremes? I was having a conversation with friends the other day. At one point, we were talking about the

The Good Mother

2010-04-17T02:25:00.001+08:00

We all want to be good at something. It makes our life worth living. It gives us a sense of purpose, a sense of meaning... I've always known what I want to be good at. I've always wanted to be a good friend, so I try to be there for my friends often, I try to be fun, I try to be cool. I've always wanted to be a good student (well, at least in the first few years of Primary education), so I try

To Write Or Not To Write

2010-04-15T02:32:00.000+08:00

The SPA exam last Saturday gave me something to blog about. Well, not really. This is just cause. Ha ha. It was a 9am to 4.20pm exam, with a single one-hour break (1pm - 2pm), and for someone who last seated for a real exam was approximately 730 days ago (equivalent to 2 years. Using 'days' instead to describe it gives it more volume *grin*), that, is mind-blasting, in a not so good way. The

It's My Birthday... AGAIN

2010-03-13T15:38:00.000+08:00

For someone who had always give two pots about having her birthday celebrated, waking up to it feeling no distinction from every other day wore me down.Yes, it did. I remember being a student in UiTM, a member of a society called Catholic Students (CSS), for 3 whole years, staying with a bunch of fellow Borneans; birthdays were always celebrated. When possible, they're celebrated in a big way.

Being Mother Amy

2010-02-23T13:08:00.004+08:00

"So how's life as a mom?" I get asked a lot. "Oh, it's wonderful, life-changing, beautiful.." comes my reply. But we've heard that part already, right? Now here's the real deal... WARNING: For those of you who aspire to become a mother, do not read on. It may crush your dreams. Ha ha.It's time-consuming. My life revolves around my baby, Micah, literally. I can't bathe, eat, go online, sleep, or

If You've Been Reading ME... - An Update

2009-12-15T16:54:00.006+08:00

After what seemed like forever of not 'properly' updating my blog, I guess I owe that to you, my readers. Before that, the reasons why I hadn't been able to do so was; 1) I didn't have the necessary device and proper Internet connection to do so.2) This excuse of course can be solved by going to the nearby Cybercafes, BUT, I didn't have the time, if not convenience, to do that. 3) Well, even if

Me.

2009-11-15T22:06:00.001+08:00

Friend. Daughter. Big sister. Little sister. Lover. Fling. Ex-girlfriend. Ex-friend. Mentor. Student. Journalist. Writer. Stranger. Enemy. Companion. Acquaintance. And now.. a MOTHER... *smiles*

Being Pregnant Amy =)

2009-09-02T21:56:00.003+08:00

Entry August 21, 2009. 0149hrs.Yes, it’s almost two in the morning and I’m still very much awake. I’m not sure if it’s just me or it’s just part of being pregnant. If it’s the latter, then this is probably part of nature’s way of preparing us expectant mothers for the many sleepless nights to come. (*smile*)I’m in my 35th week now. A complete pregnancy usually takes 40 weeks, but I asked my

Yours Truly

2009-02-23T19:08:00.003+08:00

Nothing lasts forever. I know that. No matter how much you feel for a person, it will end, one way or another. People always leave, for better or worse. Either way, it will end because of dying sparks, or dying, or old age, or other complicated issues... That's why when I met Joshua, who thinks the same thing, we both agreed on a temporary relationship. I mean, aren't they all not permanent?We

In Spite of It All

2009-01-07T17:58:00.002+08:00

Christmas and New Year celebrations are over. And I didn't think I'd get through it. Although, I did cry (ON STAGEEEEE...) the moment the countdown started and we were singing "We Wish You A Merry Christmas..." and in the case of New Year, I cried the moment I saw my family members waving at me through the phone screen and Baby Sam (who's not a baby anymore) screaming asking, "Kanapa kau???",

Still?

2008-12-23T18:32:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i last update myself on the political and social news in Malaysia. I think the last thing I remember was, Kok, RPK and the Sin Chew reporter being detained under ISA for petty reasons. And a few other news I can't recall by now. Being in in this line gives you limited time, connection, sources, but mostly a sense of concern to give two pots about stuff like that.Only today

Thanks Mom

2008-12-04T18:59:00.002+08:00

I just got off the phone with my mom and guess what? I told her that I'm pushing this till May or June after my convocation and get my transcript. As you would have expected, she gave me a long lecture about how I'd spent three years of my time - not including my kindergarten, primary, secondary and A-Levels education - and now throwing it away wasting my life and Degree on singing in a pub in

Dancing Queen

2008-11-18T15:15:00.002+08:00

It's been ages since I last got in touch with the Internet. At least I feel so. And man, ain't it torturing... So now that I get the chance to do so, what's better to do than update everyone, right? Here goes...If you don't already know, I'm in Bintulu, living the life of a Dancing Queen, or Singing Queen that is. It was initially a decision that I almost feared as something that I might regret.

Of Optimism in Possibility

2008-11-01T23:07:00.004+08:00

"… given the increasing diversity of America's population, the dangers of sectarianism have never been greater. Whatever we once were, we are no longer just a Christian nation; we are also a Jewish nation, a Muslim nation, a Buddhist nation, a Hindu nation, and a nation of nonbelievers. …And even if we did have only Christians in our midst, if we expelled every non-Christian from the United

First Love. Or So We Call It.

2008-10-30T16:47:00.002+08:00

There's this notion in my head that never wore off; that I could and would never feel love as truly, as deep, as passionate, as I did when I fell for this one guy at the age of 16. Oh, I had multiple boyfriends before as well as after him. But nothing, and I mean nothing could beat what I felt for him.This particular guy - the one I could safely say I fell in love with - he was 21 when we met. We

My Haters

2008-10-15T15:49:00.008+08:00

For someone who had received good/positive/inspiring/motivating/pleasing comments all her life, being scorned at – subtly or directly – can be quite disheartening. And as much as I would like to not believe them, I realize that being mad at these disdaining remarks would only mean that I’m being immature and ignorant of negative opinions, what could also be helpful if used correctly. So I took it

Just Forget About It?

2008-10-13T17:04:00.005+08:00

Our PM today urged us to "Have faith in Najib, ignore Altantuya allegations." Read more here (if you have access to Malaysiakini, that is).Okay, sure, I think I can do that. Not like I trust the source 100% anyway. But what about the issue regarding the submarines and Sukhoi jets purchase? That was huge. But then again, yea sure, I think I can get over that one too, not like I've seen the

Be Careful?

2008-09-30T11:56:00.005+08:00

I receive this forwarded email in my inbox this morning:"BE CAREFUL....PLEASE READ and pass them on.... (1) Today i passed by a building which has an ATM machine. There was an old man looking at me and suddenly called me. He said he doesn't know how to read, so he gave me an ATM card and asked me to help him take money from the ATM machine. I answerd him 'NO!! If you need help, ask the security

Wouldn't It Be Nice?

2008-09-26T17:31:00.005+08:00

Wouldn't it be nice if smiles pass off as easily as glances do?Wouldn't it be nice if fuels can be substituted with water?Wouldn't it be nice if people can teleport?Wouldn't it be nice if insults sound like compliments?Wouldn't it be nice if worrying is like dancing?Wouldn't it be nice if people do not berate people?Wouldn't it be nice if there are more people like Atticus Finch in this world? Or

Courage the Cowardy Sent Hero to Kamunting

2008-09-23T17:21:00.005+08:00

"Syed Hamid berkata penahanan Raja Petra itu berasaskan kepada penulisannya yang mempunyai unsur menghina dan boleh membangkitkan kemarahan umat Islam." - BERNAMA.Read more here.Raja Petra is a Muslim. And he had in numerous ways admitted that he is, explained thoroughly why he thinks that the majority of the Malaysian Muslims are not applying it the way it should be applied - NOTE that he did

Change

2008-09-17T09:01:00.006+08:00

Change. A word, more often than not, repeated in the mouths of many since the past few decades, but more prominently so since the past few months. Is it happening? The current ruling party lost its 2/3 majority for the first time last March. Five states of this nation, who had in majority voted for the Opoosition, make up a lot of people. It is a way of saying, "No more." I would say, it is

Sept 16 (yea, the Government-Toppling thing)

2008-09-16T18:50:00.003+08:00

It's 6.50pm of September 16, 2008. No news. Nothing. Niente. Nada. Aiso. Wala.I didn't expect anything to happen really. And just because none of the government MPs jump ship, it doesn't necessarily mean that all the 9-16 furore was in vain and for nothing. Look at the bright side; didn't the opposition got the government to tremble a bit? And, as a result of that, Sabah and Sarawak are suddenly

Yours Truly.

2008-09-15T16:24:00.005+08:00

Initially, i started blogging with the objective of updating friends and family on my life. and that's obviously something that I hadn't done in such a long time. So here we go:Kinki my ten-year-old dog died two days ago. I took it hard because all family members are always present to bury any of our dogs that passes away, yet Iris and I couldn't be there for the dog that we took care of the

Sept 16 (Nothing to Do With Anwar's Plans to Topple the Government)

2008-09-11T09:58:00.004+08:00

"Kamu orang dari mana datang?" asked a middle-aged Chinese aunty we met while shopping the other day. When we told her where we come from, she replied with a nice-mannered way of she "could tell by our looks." What came out next was either hillarious or offensive, depending on the decoder of the message. "Ramai orang Sabah and Sarawak datang Malaysia kerja." We laughed...Ya we found it funny,

"I Swear..."

2008-08-25T14:41:00.003+08:00

It seems like crimes and wrongdoings these days can be easily 'cleansed' and justified just by taking oaths. First, the allegedly sodomized pretty boy. Then, the whole government crew asking Anwar to 'prove' his innocence by doing the same. And then, in the latest oath-taking trend updates, Najib did so too, 'proving' his innocence over the dead Mongolian's murder.There is absolutely nothing

What If?

2008-08-20T12:08:00.009+08:00

This might sound cliche or even bromidic, but how often do we take the time to stop and think about 'what ifs'? A very close friend of mine who used to be my housemate called me today. When he told me of the news, I replied with the cliched "It's gonna be okay." But what's more than my platitude reply is that, it made me think about how all the while when people mention cancer, I (and I'm sure

On the Herald Issue

2008-08-19T17:13:00.003+08:00

I love the Catholic Lawyers' Society of KL folks.Here's what they have to say about the silly issue that shouldn't even be an issue. Read here.There are things about Christianity that he (the Home Minister) obviously does not (neither wishes to) understand; that it is universal. Translation; it involves every aspect of life, even the littlest ones. And this is about our government, about the

I Love It This Way

2008-08-14T16:15:00.006+08:00

I can't remember what personality test that was, but here's what it had to say about me:"Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality, a natural lead, who's quick to make decisions - though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once, someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in

Insecure Imbeciles

2008-08-13T08:53:00.004+08:00

How utterly embarrassed and disappointed I felt when I saw the photo of 5,000 UiTM students marching to protest the 10% opening of student quota to non-bumiputras. I've heard on Sunday that there was going to be a protest, but didn't actually thought that they would stupidly do it.What an imbecilic, insecure, racist bunch of people.Here's what I came across in the paper today, the idiocy of the

Why Selfish?

2008-08-12T17:29:00.005+08:00

It's common sense that any issue, problem, or crisis, can be best resolved by discussing it, talk about it, find out what's the root of it all, what can be done, etc. But apparently, a majority of dumbass Malaysians (excuse the language. I wanted to use the word 'stupid', but it's too nice) prefer to just sit on it with no questions asked.No? Really? So tell me, why was it that a number of about

A Walk To Remember

2008-08-07T15:04:00.009+08:00

The monorail opened and in came a blind man, no more than 25 years old. There were plenty of empty seats in there but no one seemed to bother to direct him. I think the worst person in there was me, because I see all this happening yet chose to join in indifference.It was the second last station so I guess everybody in there thought that, "It's only one station left. He could hold that short a

About Life and Sunscreen

2008-08-05T15:42:00.007+08:00

"Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind; the kind that blindside you at 4pm on some idle Tuesday."Dance…even if you have nowhere to do it but in your own living room.Advice is a form of nostalgia, dispensing

Love Defined

2008-08-05T09:29:00.006+08:00

I stood amidst thousands of young people, most of whom are university and college students. Initially I had no idea how big this thing was going to be. Even upon seeing the great number of diversified people, i was still clueless of what a big deal this event was. I thought to myself, these are just spiritual-freak bunch of people who has nothing to do on Sundays. And i actually almost gave that

MAHATHIR

2008-07-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

Got this from Ian who got it from Kuan Mei. Brilliant.When Dr. Mahathir was Prime Minister of MalaysiaOne lousy day in the middle of the economic crisis, PM Mahathir was feeling extremely frustrated and wondering how a neighboring country can be doingbetter than Malaysia .One of his aides said, "I heard that the leaders consult Feng Shui masters to ensure prosperity for the country."Dr Mahathir

No-mood Random Post

2008-07-30T09:22:00.005+08:00

Another massive traffic jam yesterday evening on the way home from work and I thought to myself, "What the hell? Another Anwar-related speculations???" The traffic was sooo damn bad. Asif and I were stuck in the car for 3-f***ing hours, remained static in one spot for 1-damned-hour. Can you imagine that? We were going crazy until I thought of a good idea to pass the time; found an NSync audio CD

Estranged Home

2008-07-25T11:49:00.004+08:00

"Here in my home..." In the first place, i honestly thought that the whole idea is cliche. Don't get me wrong; the song is good. The lyrics are beautiful and the melody as well as the whole composition of the song were done nicely. Two thumbs up for Pete Teo and his fellow comrades. I seriously look up to their optimism and effort. Pessimism however, got the best of me, as i find myself

Too Bad To Move On

2008-07-24T16:53:00.004+08:00

A man was found dead in what is believed to be suicide, yesterday morning. Two of his children aged four and one respectively were also dead, just nearby him. The guy was in the process of divorce. It is aasumed that prior to taking his own life, he poisoned his children. And they presumed that he did what he did because of depression due to family issues.It aches anyone to hear such news (

Mixed Up Priorities

2008-07-24T09:13:00.004+08:00

Our ministers and MPs are fighting over what kind of cars to use; filling spaces of printed media just arguing about which one will cost them more/less. We are arguing about territorial sea and how many nautical miles do each side owns with Singapore. Our government is doing all within (or even over) their limits to stop a de facto leader from taking over governance, even up to the point of

No Government-Chastising Today, Folks.

2008-07-21T14:07:00.008+08:00

My fellow intern and i were standing in front of this building we work in, taking our daily dosage of nicotine. And what we usually do is watch the cars that pass by (our office is facing the main road, located in the middle of the city, so quite a number of vehicles to look at, and really good, expensive ones too). He pretty much enlightened me with a lot of info about cars (a total car-freak,

Freakshow Stars

2008-07-17T23:10:00.002+08:00

I swore to myself that I will not post another post of anti-government sentiment or that with influence of political connotations, at least until another interesting politically motivated scene comes up. But I can't help it, especially after seeing how our mainstream media can be really biased in their reporting.I was reading a local english daily, N** S****** T****, and there was this sidebar on

Not Politically Motivated?

2008-07-17T08:30:00.001+08:00

Anyone with the right mind would know that the arrest of you-know-who yesterday afternoon was politically motivated. What the hell was the Home Minister talking about?? “Whatever action being taken is according to the due process of the law... not poolitically motivated.”Blimey. When an ordinary citizen gets sued for an offence, the summon letters come a week after. Yesterday we see that they had

An Unbeatable Brilliant

2008-07-16T09:11:00.001+08:00

"Brilliant. That old man still has it," was my first thought when i watched the "Tubuh Kerajaan Hari Ini, Harga Minyak Turun Hari Esok" debate between Anwar and Shabery. I found myself nodding to everyone of Anwar's points, and said "Cheh!" to every one of Shabery's. Does that make mean that i'm against the government and pro-opposition?I'm on nobody's side. But i must admit that the de facto

Selfish Scumbags

2008-07-16T08:21:00.001+08:00

The massive traffic congestion two days back didn't die down as soon as i thought it would have. Yesterday while on our way back from the office, my friends and i had another 'discussion' about it, obviously being against the police and the authority over them who had assigned them that stupid task of having have to stand there doing nothing except placed con/corn/cone (Damn it, i forgot how to

Me & My Dirty Mouth

2008-07-15T16:29:00.002+08:00

Profanity had ruled my mouth since i can't remember when. I can't recall when exactly did i start to use foul language as an expression of emotion like anger, or as a way to stress on adjectives, like how funny a joke is. But i'm feeling like i need to get rid of this habit of swearing. What if one day in the house of my future-possible husband candidate, in front of a future mother-in-law, i

Fighter Jets Over The Dying

2008-07-15T09:56:00.002+08:00

I had just entered Tesco with my housemates when a middle-aged Chinese man approached us and enlightened us with all the information regarding MAKNA and cancer. Nope, i didn't yawn neither did i feel sleepy at all. I heard of MAKNA before this but i didn't know that we can actually register to donate through our bank accounts or income taxes, which is cool. There are packages available, you can

A Job Well Done

2008-07-14T15:53:00.001+08:00

It's always a great feeling to know that you did a good job completing an assignment given to you. And today, i feel that way. Thanks to my buddy (name undisclosed due to security and confidential reasons. Yeah whatever). He handed the assignment to me more than a week ago and what did i do? What i ususally do; procrastinate. Well look, it's not like i delayed the work just because i don't feel

Truth Is Ugly

2008-07-04T16:39:00.002+08:00

Since examination and assignment deadlines last April, i barely paid any attention to what's going on in the politics of this country, or to anything else in the news for that matter. And then semester break came which only worsened the condition of my awareness and information level. It itched me to not know what to say in return when friends or people who knows i'm into these things talk about

Panic Over A Glass of Water

2008-07-02T15:43:00.001+08:00

No, the title is not some sort of metaphor i use trying to explain things. I really did panicked over a glass of water. In fact, i even got nervous over binders and scanning machines. I've always been the kind of person who couldn't care less about the big things, what more could it be with the smaller ones. I don't care if i'm late. I don't care if i don't attend class. I don't care if i don't

Lost

2008-04-28T23:13:00.001+08:00

When you cling on to something so hard, and depend on it so much that 90% of your life revolves around it, you would either cherish and take good care of it, or you take it for granted. I guess in my case, I took it for granted. Thinking that it's impossible for me to ever lose it. And when I finally did, I stood numb, disbelieved, speechless, nothing but blinks of the eyes.Okay, I'm being a

Shame On Me

2008-04-20T11:07:00.005+08:00

Spiritual dryness. It's not that I never heard of this term before, or that I never gone through such period in my life. If you have been reading my Friendster blogposts since i first started it couple of years back, you'd know that it is something that i often talk about. But I have to say that I haven't talked about it for quite some time now. I'm not sure why. Probably because I find other

How?

2008-04-16T02:26:00.002+08:00

I haven’t been prolific these days. All I did was sit my ass watching movies of stuffs that I don’t really need for my daily life. Well, come to think of it I don’t think I have ever been prolific in the past…six months. I haven’t been doing my work well, assignments. Although I managed to finish everything in time in the eleventh hour I did them out of necessity, not out of passion. It’s not

Yet Another Religious Casualty

2008-04-07T06:06:00.002+08:00

It had been the talk of our classes on a daily basis, "Boycott Dutch products." Me, obviously, and my two other non-Muslim friends couldn't care less. And no, it's not because the film wasn't anything regarding my faith, or that we're agreeing with Geert Wilders' ideas and opinions. Well, okay, maybe it's a bit of the former. But here's the thing, Christianity, probably especially Catholicism had

Bravo Malaysians

2008-03-11T05:04:00.002+08:00

"BN lost its 2/3 majority for the first time in forty years." What a news to start off a day. I found myself smiling as i was getting ready for a futsal tournament Sunday morning when the radio announced the news. I had stayed up all night the evening before, watching the scoreboard, and everytime we see a color different from blue passing through it, my friends and i would slightly cheer. Abdul

A Letter To Whom It May Concern

2008-03-05T00:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Dato',Look, I appreciate the government's efforts in maintaining the peace and constantly ensuring the development of this country. And i know you and your people up there are worried sick by now; worried that you'll lose the upcoming election, seeing that the opposition is doing pretty well in trying to convince electorates to "VOTE FOR CHANGE". But why should you worry? The EC is obviously

Confessions of A Former Leader

2008-03-04T19:24:00.002+08:00

"Mahathir Mengaku Anwar Ibrahim Dizalimi & Tidak Bersalah". Type this out on Youtube and you'll find the video (i don't freaking know how to link videos in posts, i've yet to learn). I bet most of you had already seen this video. Surprisingly, i wasn't the least shocked or amazed upon seeing the video. For one reason, i know Anwar is not guilty as charged. Secondly, despite the fact that Mahathir

Christopher Who?

2008-03-04T16:30:00.002+08:00

I know this is a long-time-gone case. But i was having lunch with my friend and out of nowhere we were talking about the government. And it got into long-time-gone Anwar's case (dear authority, if any of you are reading this, don't apprehend me. I'm only practising citizen's right to think critically and express them freely. Cheers!). Anyways, yes, Anwar. Do u remember the guy who was one of his

To Elect Or Not To

2008-03-04T16:29:00.001+08:00

Somebody reminded me about registering for voting yesterday. He asked me if i'm going to register or not. I said "No". And he asked, "Why not?" "The government is gonna win anyway. And the oppositions are not in a better position to win either." "Ignorant citizen." And i shut up. For one thing, yes, i'm being irresponsible for not giving a damn about the election and

Crossword Puzzle Over Chauvinism

2008-03-04T16:28:00.004+08:00

Fortunately i brought my crossword puzzle book along. At least i had something to do rather than listen to another prolonged, time-consuming (or time-wasting i would say), baseless, crappy speech about special rights of a certain race. Okay, Malay. There you go, i said it (and yes it makes me sick already alright, so sue me).I did not expect to gain much from the talk/speech/or whatever you call

Greetings!

2008-03-04T16:28:00.003+08:00

I had a blogspot account dated way back in 2006. But i rarely ever take it seriously until recently when i realize how fun, mind-stimulating, vocab-improving blogging really is. All these while i've been blogging craps and not until recently my lecturer encouraged us to read more about our government and current issues that i generated my current interest in chastising the ruling party. Ha!